For reasons that I won’t go into a lot of detail on here, I am looking for another job. I have said in the past that was going to look for one and never really acted on it. Well I really am this time.
I’ve been spending time every day on the job search. I’ve worked on my CV, I’ve uploaded it to more than one job site so I can use it the moment I see something I’m interested in. I’ve printed a couple of copies that I could hand in to places I see looking to hire people. So far, my search has come to nothing. In the meantime, I’ve got people who, while they absolutely mean well, are in my ear telling me about vacancies they’ve seen and telling me I should apply to them. Even if it means me getting the tram in the morning. I have experienced getting the tram in the morning rush hour and, yeah it’s not something I want to experience on a regular basis (FYI, I don’t drive).
To be honest, after so many years in my current job, I’m ready for something different, not simply doing the same thing in a different place. Recently, I’ve felt like I’ve been going through the motions in my job and realised a long time ago that there was little to no chance of progression while I was still doing it. I’ve also decided that, whatever I do next, I don’t want to be having to be on my feet as often as I have been in this one. I want to be able to do something without my arthritic knees being aggravated from having to stand up for the best part of an eight-hour shift. However, the more I trail the job sites, the more I wonder whether I’ve left it too late to change career path, or am I going to have to consider moving away in order to get a decent job.
I suppose if I am unable to get a job straight away I can always use the time to learn to drive, brush up on some skills or maybe do stuff for peanuts online. In the meantime, I’ll just keep on looking.
At the time of writing this, I am four days away from having a job interview. An interview with a big company, for something that I have long wanted to do, in an industry I’ve long wanted to get into.
I’m excited, but also nervous. And scared. Very scared.
It’s not just an interview I face. There will be two assessments I have to do, one being a group exercise, which is making me more nervous than I would be any other time. I know, I should be able to get through that part by now, seeing as I encounter strangers practically every day as part of my current job and everybody else will be in the same boat as me anyway. It’s just that even now, I still find it awkward working with people I don’t know, engaging with them and stuff. I fear I’ll clam up, sit there and feel like an utter idiot while everyone else is coming up with these amazing ideas. I feel like I’ll do the same when the actual interview happens, or I’ll stumble over my words, forget everything I want to say or say something completely stupid. I’ll either walk out of the building with pride and feeling like I have done enough, or dawdle out of it feeling ready to fall into the nearest hole. I fear the latter.
And yet, I should be happy that I got to this stage. Granted I would have been happy just to get as far as the first stage of my application. Don’t get me wrong, I am happy that I got an interview, it is just that as it has got nearer and I have found out exactly what it will entail, it’s just becoming all too real. It’s great, but it’s also utterly nerve-wracking. You’re on the one hand ecstatic while on the other you’re crapping yourself. Like the feeling I’ve had before every interview, but about ten times more scary.
I’m hoping that in a few days time I’ll look at this post and call myself daft for writing it. But more importantly, I’m hoping to get to my interview without getting lost.
So I managed to complete and submit the job application I was doing the other week. It was pretty tough going towards the end, what with me having to rewrite stuff in the hours up to the deadline but I managed it- even if I thought I was writing a load of crap.
Something must have worked though, as a few days later I got an email telling me I had got through to the second stage of the application. I was happy, until I found out that the next stage was completing an online verbal reasoning test.
Verbal Reasoning Tests (or VRTs), are these timed assessments where you read a section of text and answer multiple choice questions on it. I think it’s supposed to test how well you understand it and I guess it’s something employers rely on to see how well potential employees understand instructions and stuff. The last time I did anything like this was when I did the 11 plus many years ago, so I wasn’t holding out much hope of being good at it. In the end, I think I did ok, however the last three questions were absolutely awful. I do wish we had a little bit longer than 15 minutes to complete it though.
I don’t know yet if I have gone through to the next stage, however I guess it’s only a matter of time before I find out. I’m not building my hopes up, I know that there are plenty of other people out there who probably have a lot more experience than I do, but just to get as far as this is an achievement for me. Heck, to have actually submitted an application for something I’m interested in is an achievement alone! Whatever happens next, I feel good knowing that I have had a go and I feel ready to try and apply for others if any other opportunities come along.