The awkward moment when you read your last post…

..and you feel like apologising for it.

Seriously, I want to say sorry for the post I wrote last week. It isn’t usually my thing to write posts like that on here (I usually reserve my bouts of inadequacy and self loathing for Tumblr), but I was having one of those moments and it showed.

I had thought about deleting the post, but  I then decided that it would be better keeping it as a reminder of why I use this blog in the first place.  For that I have to thank the people who commented on it. Reading back what they said pretty much highlighted to me just how I came across in it.  In all the time I have blogged, here and elsewhere I have never really cared if I had people reading this or not. In a lot of cases, I have blogged hoping that nobody would ever read my rants and ramblings. Yet in my last post it sounded like it did matter to me how many readers I got.  If this was someone else’s post I was reading I would have regarded them as an idiot. Indeed, I regard myself as an idiot for writing such things in it.

What the comments on that post really did do for me was remind me why I blog and why many others do it. We use it as a place to sound off, to express our views,  try out ideas and share things that interest us. We don’t set a time to do it, or a target (however things like post a week/day are good for encouraging you to write more), we do it when we feel like it. If someone happens to stumble upon it, read it and like it, then that’s good, but it isn’t why we write blogs. If it was, then blogging would feel more like a job than the hobby it is.  Ultimately we blog and write in general, for ourselves, and we do it because we enjoy it.  And if it sounds like a pile of crap, so what? It is ours and we can write what we bloody well like in it.

I very nearly lost sight of this.

I just came to say hello.

Hello all you (few) people who are reading this blog. I realise that I have been neglecting this site for the last couple of weeks and as such I am a bit behind with this “post a week” challenge that I am supposed to be doing on here. To be honest, I haven’t really been in the mood to post anything recently, for a variety of reasons. I won’t go into them on here but if you have seen my twitter feed recently you might have some idea why.  The few occasions when I have wanted to put something on here I have scrapped the post either halfway through or just before I was about to post it. Sometimes it was because I had struggled to get the words down properly or I just thought the entire post was inappropriate or total drivel.

I am starting to wonder whether it is worth carrying on with this blog. I look back on some of the things that I have written recently and just wonder why I bothered.  Sometimes I wonder whether I should even bother continuing to write stuff on any of the blogs or sites that I am a part of.  In relation to other people, I have nothing interesting or of note to write about. Hell, I’m not interesting either.I find it difficult to actually focus on anything at the moment with regard to my blogging or writing in general. I fear that my heart isn’t in it as much as it used to be . I suppose I’m just having another one of my “downer” moments, but part of me does wonder whether I should just pack it all in and stop trying to achieve something that I never will in a million years (No, not having hundreds of visitors to my blog, however that would be nice).

On a lighter note, do you notice that purple banner under the “post a week” badge? Well, clicking on it will take you to a web page where you can download Kaiser Chiefs’ new album The Future is Medieval  put together by yours truly.  You can make your own on the band’s official website too, if you fancy it. That’s if you like the Kaiser Chiefs, of course.

It’s not the end of the world…

This might well be the last blog I ever post on here. Tomorrow is Saturday the 21st May, the day that some people (ok, mad American  Christian evangelists) are saying will be the day of the Rapture – aka Judgement Day, aka the end of the world.

The first time I saw someone mention The Rapture on the internet my initial reaction was “oh, is that band who did House Of Jealous Lovers making a comeback?” It was only as I read further that I realised that they were referring to an event mentioned in the Bible where all the righteous people in the world are sent up to heaven.  As you can tell, I am not a particularly religious person.  You can also tell that I’m not really a believer in God, but neither am I an all out atheist. As an agnostic, my stance on the issue  is very much “don’t know, don’t care”.

What does get on my nerves though, is how otherwise normal people fall for the old “the end of the world is nigh” crap. If it wasn’t the Millennium Bug that destroyed us all, it’s going to be 2012. Oh wait, this rapture thing is actually happening in 2011, isn’t it? And if you go off what others say it’s a precursor to the actual apocalypse which they say will happen in five months time (that’s if you’re that gullible).  The Jehovah’s Witnesses have said Armageddon was imminent at various points since they first started knocking on people’s doors nearly every week.  And that bloke who you’ve seen on the street corner holding up that infamous sign for years is surely fed up of standing there by now.

Truth is, people have been predicting and been fearful of the world ending pretty much since the first Homo sapiens walked the Earth. Even in Roman times, people were scared that the sky was going to fall on their heads one day – well, that was what the Asterix books taught me, anyway.  What’s funny is that most of the fears and beliefs that many of our ancestors had would be laughed off as ridiculous and irrational in this modern age, yet many are still scared shitless by the very thought of an Apocalypse. What’s even funnier is that the very Christians who are declaring that the moment is here are being accused of blasphemy by other Christians who say that only God can know when it’s happening.  It’s enough to make you want to whack them both over the head with a Richard Dawkins book.

Seriously, the way that some people are so frightened of the prospect of the world ending saddens me. Life is short enough as it is without worrying that you and everyone else is going to be wiped off the face of the earth soon. We all die at some point, we don’t know when our time is up but there’s no point in sitting around, getting ever more anxious and scared of facing the world in case we get hit. Life is for living, so go and live it.  It’s what God would want you to do, should he exist.

Incidentally if this rapture thing really does happen and the man upstairs starts hoovering people up to the heavens above is it possible He could wait until Britain’s Got Talent is over before he sucks me up?

The predictable blog post on the Royal Wedding.

I’m not much of a Royalist (I don’t really lean on the side of Republican either). And yes, I was getting tired of all the hype surrounding it. However, I enjoyed watching the Royal Wedding on TV yesterday. It was nice to see something other than doom and gloom on our screens for a change. I could have done without my dad flicking channels at regular intervals to see how the other broadcasters were showing it, but it did lead me to decide that out of them all, ITV had the best coverage, while Fox News was clearly the worst (the American host who patronisingly referred to our country as “Merry Old England” deserved to be locked up in the Tower Of London).

There were so many great moments in the event, but as usual the best moments were those that were not necessarily part of the ceremony. Take the verger who was caught on camera doing cartwheels (who has no doubt become a YouTube sensation), or the policeman who acted as warm up man in the run up to William and Kate’s big balcony moment. The moment the legend that is ITV news man Mark Austin got lost in the throng heading down the Mall and was accosted by some scouts  will surely be repeated on “It’ll Be Alright On The Night” – type shows across the world for years to come. But my personal favourite moment was this:

(Ignore the fact that you can see my hand in a packet of Seabrook Crisps in this picture).

Happy Easter.

Or happy “Stuff your face with egg shaped chocolate” day. I hope you are having a great day so far and are not yet regretting eating five Creme Eggs in one sitting (or ten Lindt bunnies if you don’t like Creme Eggs). I am nowhere near that stage yet, seeing as I only got given my eggs a few minutes ago and surprisingly haven’t touched them yet. Plus I am probably going to get a few more later as my sister and nephew are coming round. I just hope I don’t end up getting to the point where I can’t face any more chocolate until Christmas. Or you for that matter.

In other news, just how flipping brilliant was Doctor Who last night?! Incredibly flipping brilliant, even if it was a bit confusing in parts. I’m not going to say any more in case some people reading this haven’t seen it yet – and if you did miss it, get on iPlayer. You’re in for a treat, trust me.

Hello again.

I missed a blog post last week, because I wasn’t feeling too much like doing it.  I didn’t even post a tweet all last Sunday. I know, so unlike me.

I was intending to make up for it this week, perhaps by writing two posts this week or just posting one massively long one. However, when it came to it I once again found myself stuck for words.  See, this post a week challenge isn’t half as easy as you might think it is.  God knows I would have given up by now if I decided to take up the post a day one.  I am determined not to miss a week again though, thus I am considering keeping a list of subjects to write about somewhere for situations like these.  Or just nick an idea off  Plinky.

In other news, I think I have become addicted to Angry Birds. So much so that I bought a couple of the toys.  I gave one to my nephew.

A blog with an audioboo.

Hello.  For this week’s post, I decided that I would include a bit of audio. A bit of audio that features my voice, to be precise.  I recently signed up for an audioboo account and thought it would be fun to sometimes make audioblogs for this site. This would be particularly useful for times when I have plenty to say but don’t necessarily have the energy to type it all out.

The first blog audioboo is here: 320771-one-for-the-blog

I apologise in advance for the way I sound.